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wow... so it has been months since i have posted anything on here... its not like anything about me has changed... I am still the same person... atleast on the outside...

i have met new people, made knew friends and found out alot about my self in the past six months... i have gone through so much in the past 3 and a half years that sometimes i wonder if i will every be the lively person i used to be in 9th grade... just so innocent and kind!

but thats what people will do to you. you effect everyone you come into contact with, so make sure you have a positive effect on them!!!

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It’s just been one of those weeks...

Its spring break.... well it’s basically over now!

Last Thursday (3/31) I left for NC, I started break early! I was in DC on Friday night, spending time with family n friends. On Monday I left DC on my way to NY, we made a couple stops along the way in Maryland and Penn. to visit other people. On Monday night I got the worst news, I was probably one of the last to find out because I didn’t pick up my phone all day!

Becca had died! She was in an accident with her sister Amanda and Jessi. It was devastating, Becca was such of a great person, I cannot think of one person could say that she was ever mean. She lived such of a great and meaningful life, she reflected God in all aspects of her life. She was a role model to everyone. She had been through it all and yet still found a way to smile everyday! She will be greatly missed! Becca, I will never forget you! Church will never be the same without her; I know that every Sunday afternoon I will walk into church and look for her; it is just so hard to believe that someone so great is gone!

So I got to NY on Tuesday night and saw my aunt and my adorable cousin Jonah. We left their house early the next morning and drove all the way home. We got home at 4:45 Thursday morning, in time for me to get 3 hours of sleep before heading over to Frans to go to the funeral. The funeral was nice, but emotional for all of us! I think it helped to hang out afterwards, so we went out to eat. Friday I went shopping with my mom and then went to Chris's game and hung out with his group after! It was fun; I find that if I keep my self busy, I don’t think about it! It’s hard but in time we will see the positive her death! I know that she is sitting in heaven looking down on us and just smiling!

Now it is Sunday!!! It’s my birthday!!! I am finally 17!!!  YAY!!!

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Just shoot me NOW!!!

Its just one of those days where you think things are as bad as it can get,

but then you get that one piece of bad news you never expected!!

First soccer game is tomorrow, and I wish I could be excited but I am not!!!

So I was talking to this hypothetical friend the other day and she told me this really interesting story.

See, she is a Christian, and since you know that all of us Christians are not perfect, she has strayed a little. So she decided that she needed to go back to church. Instead of acting like nothing was wrong she was honest. She confessed her sins, even though she has many, she felt that maybe since she was at church, there just MIGHT be someone there to help her. But see, everyone decided to be UGLY backstabbers, they decided to judge her, not saying that I have never done that before, but I know that one thing that they stress in church is NOT to judge people. So instead of this friend of mine feeling welcome in church, she feels more like an outcast, like she doesn’t belong. And you know the best part of the story; the people who turned their backs basically said that everything that she has done is worse that what they have, but one thing I remember hearing in church is that all sin is the same in the eyes of God. Murder is the same as a lustful thought and having sex before marriage whether you love the person or not is just as much of a sin as swearing or running a red-light. Since I know that no one is perfect people shouldn’t judge others because judging someone is a sin, too.

Beyond that story I find it really funny how you find the most unaccepting, judging, degrading, demeaning people in a place where you would go for protection… Just a thought!!!

Just thought that this was a good story. Everyone makes mistakes; I know that, I do it all the time!!!

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Life is a B**ch